Taking charges off of my shoulders. Freedom Morning!

 25/08/2021

Hey, 

I thought today and now was a good moment to talk to myself. Gee, it has been a really strange year. I have experienced so many changes that I do not understand almost what is going on. 

I have learned a lot about myself. I have analyzed my inner side as never done before. Sometimes it becomes kind of awkward, like if I were meeting another person. 

Now, I see the inside of my mind and I only see a universe of topics to ask to myself. Has this year shown me who I really am? The emptyness I used to feel now seems to be slowy staring down. Am I knowing myself for first time?

How does it feel? Starting to be independant and seeing your goals for which you have cried and given all, finally come to you as a reward for relentless persistance and engagement. 

In writing I see the scape to that world, where time stops and where I feel all my charges are taken off of me. Amazingly spiritual, from a superior level of my cognition. I must do something with this gift. 

Today I feel in love with the universe, I do not want to loose this to scope mortal distractions. My soul is starting to breath, I do no feel my heart beating and that does not scare me...

I chose not to let anything set me down, is this wrong? that I walk in life loving me first,enjoying me first, taking care of myself at first place? thinking about my wellbeing before the schduled plans?

I needed this from a long time ago, an opended entrance to my shining and sparkling soul. Am I getting there already? Am I about to get my peace? or should I deal with more terrenal affairs?

Understanding my inside to avoid external arrows hurt and dirt the clean and tidy purpose you have conceived in the eternity for me and my  beloved ones. 

@DL